Bondi

i've been in this country for God knows how long (7mths) and today was my first time in Bondi...its beautiful, not tt many ppl thoughi its a sch hol...
didn't manage to go for CG since we were there shopping for max's present till the very last minute...OMG, its so freaking hard to get her sth..she's so sml, everything just looks huge on her..we had to imagine ok...if it fits nicely for gi, it'll be too big for her...it was like shopping for a little kid..OMG, i was looking for sizes rather than design..thnk gdness the smallest size we found kinda suit her...phew..while shopping, i kept gg around saying,"omg she's so small..i can't believe how small she is...i think we nd the kid's dept...i'm shopping for a kid."
now i can imagine how my mum shops for me when she's in europe..damn..thnk's mum muack, i salute u..

start of hols

1. aite..school's out, but i hv 3 presentations to prepare..yea
2. i'm getting irritated by some ppl..basically i'm saying i'm giving up on ya, u could do whatever u want with ur life..
3. i got tipsy on friday..act it was sat morning
4. i'm an official fb addict...
5. can't wait to go hm and apply for driving and meet up with ppl..esp class 4.8 of 2004
6. my roommate is snoring this very minute as i'm composing...
7. i'm intimidated by 4.7 peeps..esp the head girl..is shirlyn straight?? what abt carlene? i think carlene's straight...but i'm unsure of shirlyn...
8. what's up with me and sac? i just can't seem to let go of it somehow...why do ppl i start hving feelings for after sac come frm sac??
9. nicole has been scarred for life
10. what will her rxn be if she finds out tt i'm bi?? yes, she'll freak out and go why??
11. kat's coming over tmr...more like later today
12. i'm more excited of germaine and fran coming back to sydney than my own bday
13. omg..they'll be ard on my bday
14. if germaine successfully brings in my kuih tart...i'll be stuffing myself with goodies everyday till the container is empty..
15. max's bday is tmr..Happy Children's Day
16. i feel like wearing suspenders later today
17. if only i didn't bring hm my fedora...it would hv completed my suspenders look
18. i still hv no idea what i wanna do on my bdae
19. oh ya...more meet-ups with cherie when i'm back in sgp since she's the only one hving a break frm sch...we can go to simpang and 85 together and disturb wanying, janice and the rest by crashing their lectures hehe silly me
20. yes, i'm referring to another cherie..NOT cherie low
21. my baby and mummy will be gg over to india on my bday instead of sydney :( hv a safe flight and tc in india
22. i shld be slping now

nites everyone whom actually reads this blog...may God bless u everyday and lead u to the right path..

it's time

i've finally got the guts to tell max...after day 1 of the sex+love+relationship talk...and after seeing her in the common room watching family guy and american with phae, pizza coke and fred jumbo wings...somehow something just told me to just tell her...so i msn with her tt nite, and told her tt i've got sth to tell her and watever happens, we shld still remain frens..she agreed..and while i was chatting with her i chatted with a bunch of other ppl too, germ, kat, phae, wan and her own sis fran...
i was like freaking out the whole day...after all my classes...T had to calm me down with a lolli..thnks dear...and i procrastinate to tell her after her class...like seriously, go ask gi and tubu..they were in the room when i was "slping" and making weird noises...
when i finally felt calmer, and my lolli was almost done (i'm a super slow sucker, took me an hr to finish a chupa chups), i went over to their room..but there were a whole bunch of ppl there...started biting on the stick and just left the room to gi's rm again..waiting
when i heard anson and char walking past, i knew the room was pretty much empty, it was time..germ acc me there..i went in, T took a cup and left the both of us there to talk...i wanted to tell her, but she was the one doing most of the talking..i remained pretty silent, smiling, playing it cool...still no sense of relief after we're done talking..meditated in germ's rm...slight relief, but i still hv feelings for max..somehow deep down inside there's an itsy bitsy emotion lingering in me...
just read her blog...she's in denial, love didn't happen just ard...it also involved her...i know she might feel uncomfortable since she's frm an all-girls moving into a co-ed sch, but how in the world do u find it disturbing and confusing..i think fran is right..i dun think she's ready to be with anyone right now...

do you even notice the signs???

since sunday...i've been throwing myself at u...grasping your head gently with my hands, leaning over/towards you when i'm sitting beside you, messing up ur hair or pulling ur hoodie over your head, swinging my arm over ur shoulders or the chair u were sitting on, challenging u to go up against me...have u noticed these signals i'm sending through...hv u any reply to it??
was the slap on the face a sign? was the straight dive for the peck on the cheeks dare a sign? was the hug goodbye a sign too? i hv my doubts but i hope they are though i dun think they are...does tt make sense?? the slap on the face could just be your playful self..the kiss could be coz u've done so many truth or dare games...the hug...i can't explain, u came in the final 5% and held me tightly in ur arms...or was tt just a normal hug and i imagined it to be more...
even ur sister agrees tt u're blur...but i like it...u may be lame, but i like tt too...u're shorter than me even with heels, i really like tt...most of all i find u real adorable...like the way u respond to ppl's qn and the way u went to gi asking her for her full name coz her notes helped u achieve the highest grade in econs...
u may not know the drama gg on behind closed doors in taylors..and i dun intend for u to know...but soon u'll find out or u'll be lured to the dark side, but i shun't allow her to have control of you like her male toy puppets...even when u are or not mine, i'll look over u, for your sister, as your senior, and as a friend.


Lead Me to my MAXimum Potential Dear Lord...